Sunday, March 27, 2016

(Poem) Sentiment of Honor



The date was circled red on the calendar
And noted two months from my birthday
There was no intention of forgetting
When the funds were to be deposited
Yet, with the anticipation of a child
Wishing to open a Christmas present
Every day I frequented my online account
Fretting the promise would not be kept

My impatience was abated
When the allocations were recorded
Onto my side of a financial ledger
Registered was more than a dollar value
But a chronicle of triumphs and vigilance
Managing the trail of monthly contributions
That began forty eight years ago
With a three year lie upon my age

A timesheet recorded my employment
Paycheck increments attested to my work
That were then endorsed for deposit
With my seal and sentiment of honor
Education was my primary intention
But pleasure flourished along the way
My greatest attainment was providing
The assurance for my mother’s home

The deductions at times seemed unfair
And congress still contests its survival
Yet this first social security compensation
Is fundamentally an accounting of my life
The endurance to take on the challenges
And the dignity in completing my tasks
Pride in my dreams and achievements
Privileged to have shared these gifts

It is my rite of passage
I am officially retired


Tuesday, March 22, 2016

(Poem) The Word



Inside a shoe box
I’ve saved photos and notes
Once they were current
But now recount my past
Dreams and ambitions
Cherished or forgotten

These were words and images
That once had mattered
A passionate investment
To inspire my tomorrow
It’s the motive for my poems
Dusting off what I’ve become

In a flash
A snapshot captured
A simulated love affair
Just as instantaneous
It was transmitted
Into the virtual world

On their handheld devices
Everyone noticed
Her smile
Their embrace
A sip from their glass
Sparkle of a ringed crystal

But disregarded
Prior to the photograph
The couple had stood
Detached, far apart
Their smile did not endure
The walk back to the start

It was a pretense
A staged memory
An instant of
Make believe
That in time
Became the fact

After all
The digital image
Was all they had
And the friendly “likes”
Affirmed it happened
The divorce was a surprise

But in a letter
Written to herself
Was all about doubt
And the pain it inflicted
The options considered
And resolution to make it last

It had been stowed
Inside a hardcover book
Free of friendly tags
Just a bleed of the ink
From the tear she had shed
She remembered why they parted

Sunday, March 13, 2016

(Poem) Diminishing Returns



In the custody of cherished thoughts
I believed he would be protected
Hung on the wall were paintings
That had been with him
For as long as I can remember
The furniture were those
Well worn from years of use
Yet these did not guard him
Against the time’s ravage of his mind

It is the memories that are blurring
Leaving him raw to the past
Photos of himself become distorted
By what he is not able to remember
Unsettled feelings are resurrected
By the impulse of a momentary thought
He tends to meander
Losing logic on its path
At even supper, he does not recall why he sat

At times he fights the changes with anger
Reproaching those who help him
             It is hurtful without his gratitude
             Tiresome to clarify what he cannot recall
             Disheartening to compare him
             To the man he once was
             Then was an expansive world in which
 He guided me during troubled times
But now follows tentatively, as would a scolded child

His past is vanishing
And every day is lived
With diminishing returns
But I will maintain
Him with dignity
By holding to those memories
Fading from his mind


Monday, March 7, 2016

(Poem) Routine




Crusted with remnants of sleep
My eyes resist the light
That gradually paints a panorama
Outside my bedroom window

As if magnified by the glass
The sun shines warmth
Rousing me from under the covers
And nudges me out of bed

On an immutable course
The sun tracks the day
From the east on sunrise
To the west at sunset

At each horizon
Its rays of light
Become diffracted
Into a spray of color

However constant on its path
I cannot recall it when
A sunrise or a sunset
Appeared like any other

Habit, as is the path of the sun,
Has steered me toward success
But now retired I find it tiresome
To everyday follow the same routine

From my bed to the shower
And on to contrived chores
Without a favorable endpoint
Habit has provoked ambivalence

Confronted with a second look
The sun is realized the backdrop
Rather than the array in its
Daily capricious spectacle

It’s with the earth’s rotation
And atmospheric volatility
That the sun daily flourishes
Into a palette of inspiration

It’s the way of nature
-The constancy in design
-The strength in momentum
-The beauty of the increment

I reassess the course of my life
And transfixed, I notice the furrows
Disrupting the rut I claimed,
-The disregarded indulgences

 Enlightened, I reconsider
-The door graciously held open
-An unsolicited compliment
-A smile requiting a reply

I know now to live my life patiently
Accept the strength from habit
And flourish from the indulgences
-The daily chanced compassion